playlist!

whee~

i added this widget to my blog. some playlist thing i grabbed off some random person. meh.

i like it when i blog hop, and there's a good selection of music to listen to on their blogs. you get to see how crappy/good other people's tastes in music are.

but it's So. Freaking. Annoying. when the music just starts playing. without warning. when my laptop is at maximum volume.

so i was pretty pleased when i saw this: autoplay? yes/no. click no.

right now there's only four songs on the list, and these are currently stuck in my head. and oh! i "discovered" steve aoki's mixes not too long ago, and i have to say, me liking them! =D *thumbs up* i've included two which i keep replaying on youtube. sharing is caring mah! whee!! and benny benassi mmmmm benny benassi. i'd put tiesto in as well, but i can't pick which, and i can't possibly stick all his tracks there kan. so we shall see =D

i'm surprisingly chirpy for a girl who has one more paper tomorrow, and hasn't finished even a chapter. yay to procrastination!

go me! =D =D

are you annoyed by the countless whee's and =D's yet? hohoho

brimful of tears

sometimes i curse myself for being so sentimental.

i miss you. so very much, you have no idea. =(

do you even think of me?

on the subject of pussy willows...

ze- says:
my dad asked the waiter what the flower is in the middle of the table
Carol - je suis faim says:
the brown stick with the white furry buds
-ze- says:
then the pakistani/bangla waiter said oh this is a pussy
Carol - je suis faim says:
pussy HAHAHAHHA OMG
-ze- says:
and he went on explaining i dont understand what he's talking coz of his accent buy somehow he pronounced puuuhhh ssseeee very clearly
so the whole conversation i cud only hear...pussy...pussy....pussy,...
Carol - je suis faim says:
omg. tu imagination running wild adi! lol
-ze- says:
lol then i was trying not to laugh
Carol - je suis faim says:
its damn funny right
-ze- says:
every1 was listening seriously i was like...WTF!
Carol - je suis faim says:
most chinese households hve that... plant. but not everyone knows what its called HAHA
-ze- says:
lol first time i heard that name too
Carol - je suis faim says:
serious! lol
-ze- says:
well i meant first time i heard it applying onto a flower
Carol - je suis faim says:
what do chinese call that flower?
-ze- says:
dono lol
Carol - je suis faim says:
which part of it resembles a pussy, right oh. its furry ><
-ze- says:
i wonder if it's called....hai lol
Carol - je suis faim says:
hai. HAHA and because the white furry buds drop off quite easily, hence, haiLAT
-ze- says:
LOL
so there's how hailat originated!!!

the things that amuse me. tsk tsk tsk

if only you knew

siewyong: says:
i know! i know!
guess wut i know!
Carol - je suis faim says:
wat wat!!
hehe
siewyong: says:
( i know carol loves me) haha

she put a smile on my face. my woman's response to my emo msn pm.

=) i know you love me too!

Never ever

MSN convo with a friend few days ago...

johnpaul says:
lols. Just suddenly remembered our i-never session long long time ago with hui sen and ze.
Carol - je suis faim says:
i knooooooow
johnpaul says:
Hahaha!
Carol - je suis faim says:
at poppy. that corner sofa table out by the dance floor
johnpaul says:
Lols. Its still damn funny,
Carol - je suis faim says:
we were sabo-ing everyone else!!
i never wore a skirt b4 WTF
johnpaul says:
I said, i-never wore bigger than an A cup before.
You were like. Bastard.
Carol - je suis faim says:
i never asked for a girls phone number in a club b4 WTF. that was for you, for asking chern's. and seng, for asking mine lol
johnpaul says:
Lol!
Carol - je suis faim says:
YAH I RMB THAT!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrr

i loved that game. I Never. the first time we played with was with the bf and her cousin, right next to the bathroom. and we sat on the floor cross-legged. we were still young then and had no alcohol at our disposal, so we improvised with a huge bottle of water (i remember it was a 7-up/Sprite/Mountain Dew bottle, it was green). our rule was to not visit the bathroom. and it worked.

halfway into the game all three of us were in hysterics already. we had horrible stomach cramps from laughing too much, hoarse throats from screaming at whoever downed a shot (and by shot, i mean a capful of water), and bursting bladders.

when will i ever play I Never, in a somewhat similar context again?

happy pappy

right this moment, i am happy as a bird. are birds happy, though? hmm...

i can't quite expain why, because words fail me. but yes! i am happy.

and i'm writing this now to show those who read my blog that, yes, i AM happy. just that i chose to potray the darker side of me.

and i guess it's evident that when i'm happy, i'm reduced to a complete idiot when it comes to language =)

find me find you

i get this panicky feeling sometimes.

the kind where you're afraid of losing. something, someone, everything.

myself.

and the frequency increases these few days.

i'm surprised to even know that i can feel so much.

little things make my day. but then i soon see that little things, are indeed just little things. not the big picture.

little pastimes to fill my days.

not the emptiness.

i try to hold on to everything i can. ignoring what's in front of me. believing what i'm told.

not realizing the more i hold on, the more i slip away.

and i am. lost.